Angels of the Sea

Whales are creatures of the ocean,
Teachers of gentle motion,
That allow us to see,
The meaning of “being free”,
For they are the angels of the sea.

14-10-15 Another week, another rotation, and a week closer to the final exam of emergency medicine. I usually find starting a new rotation is stressful because at the beginning it’s hard to know all the ‘ins and outs’ of the job. This week was no exception, except I was blessed by being supported by some wonderful colleagues, especially my intern Kate who had such a positive outlook on medicine and life in general!

After feeling so tired from the week just gone, spending extra hours studying for my emeregency medicine fellowship exam which I will sit in February 2016, I decided to catch up on sleep and skip the opportunity of a morning surf. Instead, Sanna and I decided to go to our favourite café in Thirroul to have a coffee and do some study. However, before sitting I felt a strong calling to first go for a ‘nature break’. As far as my logical mind could reconcile, this venture was going to be a walk to the ocean, for the purpose of gaining some inspiration before going back to practicing exam questions.

When walking down to the Thirroul beach I saw that familiar splash in the distant ocean that always makes me think “is that a whale?”. My knee-jerk reaction was to say to Sanna “Hey I think I just saw a whale! Did you see it?”. She usually discounts such suggestions because I forever seem to be saying, “hey I think I just saw a whale!?”. Sanna has grown to be slightly dismissive about these suggesions, but the great majority of times that I’ve suggested this it has turned out to be correct. I keep seeing them and they keep appearing in my life. Today was a case in point.

When we got down to beach front, I went straight to edgy and we could clearly see at least two maginificent playful whales periodically jumping out of the water creating quite a splash. It was an amazing scene to encounter. No matter how far away, or close, one is to a whale in the wild, it is a magnificent thing to be around them. Interestingly the previous night I had a beautiful dream where I saw a humpback whale jumping out of the ocean in full breach. I had forgotten about this dream – but it seemed to have come true~!



Have faith

Have faith when you least can see clearly,

This is when you must believe the most,

Be willing to fall flat on your face,

And fall again,

Crawl again,

And persist again,

Resist the shame,

And then… exist again,

For after the storm the trees remain,

Just as they were.

And when everything was a blur,

You still remembered to see,

Inhaling through your breath,

Inciting wisdom from your depths,

“To exist is enough”

So please remember these words,

And cherish them well,

For one day….

They may be your ticket out of ‘hell’.



Happy Valentines Day… with “Love”


Without love what is there?

Who will care?

Or who will have the energy to share?


Without love what is the point?

You might as well smoke a joint,

And escape the world you see before you,


Without out love where will be the solutions?

For the problems of the mind,

How will we have time to be kind?


But “With Love” you might care,

And become aware,

Of the sunlight that shines above the cloud,


With love you need not stand proud,

For you will be as humble as a brick,

And your mood can change quick,


Into one of warmth and peace,

Problems tend to cease,

And ‘Ironed’ will be the crease,


And to have ‘love’ you do not need a significant other,

For we all have a mother or a brother,

Or someone you can call a friend,


This is more important in the end,

For even our most treasured lover,

Will still be a friend undercover,


So cherish what you have on valentines day,

Tell those you love, how they move you in a very special way,

And most of all don’t be afraid to say,


Those three words that are more precious than gold,

Spanning our inner sentiment from young to old,

Requiring one to be ever so bold,


“I LOVE you”


– Happy Valentines Day Everyone!



14-2-12  Well it’s valentines day again and I wanted to put out a universal poem on one of my favourite topics – Love! 

I’ve always kind of liked Valentines day, not for the commercial fiasco that it has become, but rather for the commemoration of one of the things which I believe is so important in life – Love. 

Wouldn’t it be nice if we could just tell people that we cared about them whenever we felt this way instead of taking it for granted (or “assuming”) they already know this?

Unfortunately the word “Love” has become a four-letter word in many societies on the whole, where it is used with more caution than other four letter words that don’t signify the same thing. Don’t get me wrong I’m all good with popular culture, but I sometimes wonder what the world would be like if it were “cool” to talk more about love in regular conversations rather than just reserving it for the lyrics of songs or poetry (not to discount these mediums in anyway – because I think they are great!).

I guess part of this situation, as I see it, is to do with the language of love in the English language. The most common use of the word relates to love in the context of a romantic relationship. This is of course perhaps the way Valentines day is celebrated today, but I see it another way – or at least this poem does. Perhaps valentines day could be an opportunity for us to show that we care about people to the people we care about? And it doesn’t have to be in a commercial way, for today we live in the age of communication technology (on steroids!). A simple text message or email, or tweet or Post – or direct message to those we care about most. Wouldn’t it be great to be part of or promote a culture of showing that we care? As John Lennon so beautifully put it… Imagine?

I remember back when I first discovered what Valentines day, I was at the primary level (age 8) when I was going to an international school in Saudi Arabia. At this particular school there were people from all around the world and there was one girl who was American who gave all the boys in the class a card. Why, we all thought? Because it was “valentines day”! I think we all had to learn about the St Valentines and had a small session on it, but all the boys were more interested in seeing what was written on the card. We were all looking to see what she wrote and I remember the message I got was “I like you”, I was so happy! Then I looked over and saw my mate’s card, who was a bit of a ladies man (ie, all the girls use to write love hearts next to his name on their doodle pads!) and his card said “I love you!”. I’m sure her mum had told her to give all the boys a card and I think it was really nice gesture. Most of us had a British background and I don’t think Valentines day had become so big at that stage (unlike the post-global commercialization situation of today) – but I thought it was so nice that nobody (at least in the boys group) felt excluded. I always took that with me as something that I would be aspire to be into when it came to acts of kindness – “inclusivity”.

Years later in Sri Lanka, when I was doing field work in Anuradhapura on one Valentines day, I felt the urge to send text messages to all my female friends wishing them a happy valentines day, but I thought it would be fun to also say this in Sinhalese. The only problem was I didn’t even know the proper term, or if such a phrase existed in rural Sri Lanka. The only way to find out was to ask the cook of our study house, Anusha, what the term was. Anusha had also become a friend who taught me much about the culture that I was living in, at least through the eyes of someone from the village.  She taught me the phrase “Suba Arderaya Wante dinya” which I used in my text messages. The replies I received reflected much much amusement, and it was only when I later checked with the research assistants I worked with what the exact meaning of the words was. They literally translated to “Happy Lovers Day”, and some people seem to think that this was only reserved for couples who had a significant other! Ooops! 

So does love translate differently in different languages? Perhaps. I know that in Pali, a dead language that is used in Buddhist philosophy, there are four words that describe different kinds of sentiments that all come under the umbrella of love, these are  “Metta, Karuna, Mudita, and Upeksha”. It’s worth looking into because the definitions of these are all very interesting. But in this philosophy there is also the talk of one of the higher forms of love being to do with the “friendship” element of Love – after all I feel that love is the basis of friendship. I guess this is the concept that is perhaps one of the most important messages of the Poem. We all have friends if we are humble enough to accept the friendship that is offered to us. 

When was in rural Sri Lanka I remember not being surrounded by my old friends, but I had made new friend and with this came the love that friends had. Adding to this was the background level of caring that existed in the whole community where I was working – something that I often experience in smaller rural places no matter where they are in the world (a least this goes for my experience of travelling and living in many places around the world). So my reflections are that love “is” usually there if we are willing expand our horizons of what it means and active enough to look around. Even although I am currently blessed with a loving partner on this Valentines day, it hasn’t always been that way – but even when I was without a partner, I am glad I was able to learn how to be ‘with love’ by feeling the love that was around. This was reflected in my “Valentines Day Wish” Poem from 2 years ago, when I was “single and looking” (using facebook terminology!). 

So happy valentines day and enjoy it just as you would any other day – but most of all don’t be afraid to say “I love you” – or at least show it to those who mean the most to you!  

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Universal Love – Valentine’s day wish!

So after a long blog silence I decided to pick today to write an new entry 

Just a co-incidence? 

No way – there’s no such thing in my universe! 

I think Valentine’s day is a good one to get off your butt and write some, after all I regard it as a special day. Not because of the commercial aspects of what this days seems to have become for many, but rather because of what I choose to see in it – a celebration of love – the most important energy that we have free access to. 

I’ve been meaning to post something for so long, but I am always waiting for the time to polish things up before pushing “send”, perhaps this is the plight of an in-experienced blogger!? Or is it the plight of a guilty PhD student? 

Oh well, in brief, i’ve been back to Sri Lanka for one last trip, and had a family ‘holiday of a life time’  – so good to re-connect, and much need after a what has been quite an intense final leg of the PhD journey (which I am still on). 

Apart form touring around with my close ones, I have also made great conceptual progress in the whole putting together of this Thesis and I thankfully feel ‘on track’ although i must say i am constantly feeling like I should be doing more. Currently hanging it out with old school friend Vish who has a ‘great pad’ in Bondai Beach perhaps doesn’t help with the feeling of guilt – because the beach has been beckoning! 

However, surprisingly the work has also been flowing over here. Today i finally finished the paper i’ve been working on for longer than I care to admit. This proved two things to me, ‘life is not a race’ (but unfortunately we live on a racecourse) and never, ever, ever give up cos you’ll get there in the end,  and finally – ‘always’ stay positive, or at least stay as positive as you can!

So today is Valentines day and it has been an interesting one so far! The only romance has been in my own mind, but interesting all the same. I can’t complain thought because life has been treating well. And now about to see Avatar 3D with a few friends, and i’ve heard it is good. 

So in the spirit of love and romance here is my valentines message to the universe – I know it is ready to receive!

I hope you all have a wonderful and romantic Valentines day. Don’t forget to use a little extra love today – it is the greatest force in the universe after all!

Love is the Greatest

Love is the greatest force in the universe
Untapped and oozing in potential
It can be received like the ripened fruit on a bountiful tree
We can accept it, and accept it with glee

With love by our side we can go forth and do the impossible
Without this force it will be hard for us to do anything
For there will be fear and guilt
The nemesis of living

Instead we should choose the answer of “giving”
And to do this we need to use love

Love can be given as well as received 
It has no rules
It is both simple and complex at the same time 

Love is my mission in life.
It allows me to overcome my strife,
Which usually runs rife,
In this deluded existence

Luckily when I come back to basics 
And try a different perspective

LOVE is there 

Like an old friend who has never left
Peeping at me from the side
Waiting to be invited into the centre

Love is the key to happiness 

You do not need to look for love happiness when you are coming from there.

So look for your LOVE within
And when you find it, 
Don’t be afraid, let your love sing

Love is the greatest force in the universe
So why don’t we start using it today? Right now, right this second?
If we do, we can see what love will bring?
So engage with your love and then wear it like a ring.

Love is Supreme

Love is Divine

This is your sign

With love you will shine.